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| i've been hanging out with josh since he got here, he gets along really good with my sister and her boyfriend which is good. i just hope he understands that i'm not into having a relationship right now. not only am i not ready emotionally, mentally, etc...but i dont have the time. i REALLY wont have the time once school starts. i've also been sick the past week or so with sinus stuff. it sucks. THEN yesterday was the two year anniversary of when my dad left so yesterday sucked. it was my mom's bday and i got to take her and my brother out for lunch. and we gave her some gifts, knots landing season one on dvd, and a couple of other things. i guess i was trying to make up for how horrible a memory her bday is now since dad left on it.
ugh
stupid guys
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| I am feeling really down. B/c this guy that I wanted to meet, you may remember him, ne way, he was supposed to come down in may and he didn't. I got really upset and blah blah blah. Well, now he says he is coming down for SURE. I just can't believe him this time. Anyway, so I'm upset about that and then I am upset about guys in general....I feel like I am NEVER going to find Mr. Right. All I get is Mr. Wrong. Or Mr. Co-Dependent. Or Mr. Doesn't Want a Relationship....I'm getting kinda tired of it....Guys Suck. | | |
| The World's Shortest Fairy Tale
Once upon a time , a girl asked a guy
"Will you marry me?" The guy said "No".
The girl lived happily ever after and went
shopping, dancing, drank MARGARITAS,
always had a clean house, never had to cook for
anyone, stayed skinny and farted whenever she
wanted.
The End
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| SO..... I have always been a complete believer that love, when its real and completely formed, never goes away totally. For Example, my ex.....I still love him. Obviously for those who have talked to me lately....
anyway
But maybe I am wrong. I think that I really have no clue what love is. How can someone love you after knowing you a week? Is there such a thing as Love at First Sight? and what about all those times that people fall in love with the person who annoys them the most? Know what I'm talking about??? I have no idea what the answers to these questions are. I also have no idea whats going on in my heart and mind....Most of you know what kind of past I have had with men, I say men for the lack of a better word....or for the lack of not wanting to use the REAL word that describes most of them. I always pictured myself marrying someone who is going into the Ministry. Someone who loves God and wants me to help them serve. But all the guys I have ever had any contact with that are going into that field turn out to be self-absorbed jerks. So the question, Ladies and Gentlemen, for the night, or the decade, is....what is Gods plan for my life? Am I to be with someone who is going to have a "normal" life or to be with someone who is going to have a not so predictable life?
What is THE DEAL DOODS????
Luvs yous SUCH much!
Tara | | |
| I want everyone to know I stopped smoking today. I dont have a problem saying it b/c everyone pretty much knew I did it anyway. I am very proud of myself. It took a long time and alot of prayers and alot of time, but I decided to quit.
One of the reasons why I decided to quit is b/c A. I know its something I NEED to do and B. I know I will never get the kind of guy I want if I keep up these habits. But trust me, its more A. than B. B would just be an added bonus :)
ok, well lets hope i can keep it up!
LUVS YOUS SUCH MUCH!
Tara | | |
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